Today is Friday. It should be a nice day coz Friday is weekend. But in fact, for me particularly, it is not how it is should be. Woke up quite earlier and prayed. I prepared my self, especially the mentaly.
OK. I was ready.

When I got my result,… I was very sad. Unsatisfied score… very..very bad..
Anyway, I can’t blame whoever. It is my result.

However, thank you for my Holy Father, who give me strength.. I believe that He was not only created me, but also still creating me. AMEN.

Thanks also for my dad who always keep support me. I love you my dad, nothing is the same like you…
I keep thankful for my score, actually God. I know You still has much more plans for me 2 make me better in Yours.

For all my friends, who support me thanks a lot, especially Iyos..(thank so much yach)..
Jesus bless u all …

Tommorow is 1st of April.. Bro’s b’day.. I promise I won’t break his happiness tommorow..
yeah.. It should be better tommorow…

Since English became an International Language, sometimes my mind thinks
about:
do the British are lucky because they were born as native English?

Yeah, sometimes my mind also answers: absolutely yes. They don’t need learn
any other language. Fuiih.. Lucky them. That’s why when I met a native speaker..
I was not confidence, coz in my opinion: I am facing someone who can speak
English very properly..

But.. I’ve just disagree with my opinion.. ??? That’s mean.. I was absolutely
wrong. Now, I can feel very lucky coz I’m not an English native. I can learn
more language and that’s richness, of course. If I face a native speaker, I just
think that English is my secondary language. No matter I’m using it properly or
not. As long as I’m trying to keep improve it, it will be better.

How if I asked the native speakers to speak Bahasa Indonesia? I think, I can
speak English better than they speak Bahasa Indonesia? Am I right? (Probably
not, but it’s should be right, maybe hahaha :D).

Anyway.. English is must!!(using !)…and it must be
English..

—That is the end of section one —

Banyak hal yang ternyata tidak seperti kelihatannya..

Artinya?? ntar..ntar…
sewaktu aku membaca artikel-artikel ato pun tulisan2 yang bisa dikatakan motivasi, membangkitkan semangat, ato apapun itu, aku langsung berpikir, "yeah, i will do it".. dan kembali melanjutkan kembali membaca…
Semakin lama, aku makin sering membaca tulisan2 yg seperti itu (ntah dari milis, buku, web, ato ntah dari mana aja) –> kurang tau juga apa memang aku yang sangat membutuhkan bacaan seperti itu untuk diriku ato memang aku ketagihan dengan manisnya kalimat2 yang disajikan <– ‘i wish i know’

Tapi yang pasti memang akan tumbuh suatu pikiran2, wawasan, dan pola pikir yang baru terhadap suatu hal.. dan satu lagi: muncul juga "komitmen" baru untuk setiap hal yang aku baca (dilandasi bagusnya motivasi, alur cerita, dan atau cerita bacaan itu sendiri)
"ah aku nanti buat seperti itu ah"

Tapi hari ini aku berpikir lagi, "berapa banyak yang udah aku implementasikan??"
hahaha, it’s amazing man.. kayaknya sikit kali.. Trus.. itu gara2 apa?? apa aku yang plin-plan terhadap komitmen ato apa ya??

Tiba2 aku teringat… o ya.. ternyata aku sering salah dalam memanfaatkan waktu… belum gitu bagus me-manage waktu.. aku sering menomorduakan kerjaan ku.. sehingga aku punya "keinginan" yang bagus, tapi hasil kerja yang kurang baik… akibatnya…. aku berusaha mengejar menyelesaikan pekerjaanku tersebut semampuku… hasilnya: lelah, bosan, malas, pening, dsb… nah untuk mengobati lelah,bosan itu yaaa… aku baca-baca artikel dulu ah.. cari-cari artikel motivasi dulu supaya aku jangan malas, dsb…

Hahahaha… ternyata itu semua tidak sepenuhnya berguna… Itu ternyata jadi lingkaran setan bagiku.. (mulak-mulak tusi)..Yaaah.. this is a nice experience for me too.

Yeah, aku harus punya strategi ngatasinya.. –dan kayaknya udah punya—
apa itu?? do it now!! yes NOW !! hehehe…. (semoga aku mengerti artinya)

The Lord is my programmer
I shall not crash
He installed His software
on my harddisk of my heart
All of His commands are user-friendly
His
directory guides me
to the right choices for His name shake
Eventhough I
scroll through problem of life
I will fear no bugs
For He is my
backup
His password protects me
He prepares a menu before me in the
presence of my enemies
His help is only a keystrokes away
Surely goodness
and mercy will follow me
all the days of my life
and my file of life will
be merged with Him
and saved forever.

——————-
taken from FG